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Listening to Brandi Carlile is one of the few things that make me feel whole.

The Moment

You have merely tasted life,

ever so subtly, yet ever so hauntingly,

you fear that my moment of brief happiness has passed,

the one moment at dawn when the dew is glistening and the mist blurs everything into perfection,

the brief moment when you look at the stars and feel strangely full,

when you stand in the breeze of life and breathe deep,

subconciously realizing that the moment of hope, joy, will pass soon,

the sun wrapping it’s vibrant rays around you,

the breeze caressing your heart,

life at the moment feels like everything,

life at the moment feels like nothing,

it is merely you, the ball of butter in the sea of sky, the breeze rousing your happiness, and the hope of love.

But the moment passes,

the dew dissipates and the world begins to feel stale,

the stars fade as another day intrudes on your peace,

and the breeze dies and the clouds begin to stifle,

and you find yourself in the destructive wake of happiness, hope, unable to breathe, living in the past.

lichen this, lichen that. lichen guernsey.

So today I went to the northern shore of guernsey to look at lichens. it was a study so we had assigned quadrants and what not, and had to swab rocks for salinity. twas really windy but very epic weather. the sea was choppy and seemed to want to come out and eat us poor students. but it didn’t. the wind almost had its casualties. including a pair of gloves and other important papers. had lunch on the opposite beach. pics to come later.

and its dinner time! the white wine accompanying it excites me. too bad we have a lecture on tides after.

note: my play of words on the title only works with one of the two pronounciations of ‘lichen’.

Zero.

My tumblarity of zero depresses me. Or at least demotivates me.

And ‘tumblarity’ isn’t spelled like I thought it would be.

“Melody” by Kate Earl

No matter what has ever come to me
I got my own brand of company
I got da da da inside my head
And I play songs back to back until I got to bed

Wake up by myself inside an empty room
There’s no body next to mine to oooh
But my skin is warm and my heart is full
It’s the do do do do do do

Walking waking on a crowded street
With my headphones loud
So my hips can swing, so my head can nod
To the rock and roll to the boom boom beat

& I find that I’m never alone
& I find that my heart is my home
& the music within makes me whole
A world that I built on my own

& I know that I’m never alone
& I know that my heart is my home
Every missing piece of me
I can find in a melody

No matter what has ever come to me
I got my own kind of company
I got ba ba ba inside my head
And I sing songs back to back until I go to bed

There’s a river in my mind that’s never still
Swirling, soothing all the time gives me a thrill
Swimming in the notes that go
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Wandering, waking in an empty wood
It is quiet here, I am powerful
I look down below serenade the world
From inside my soul

& I find that I’m never alone
& I find that my heart is my home
& the music within makes me whole
A world that I built on my own

& I know that I’m never alone
& I know that my heart is my home
Every missing piece of me
I can find in a melody

When the walls begin to creep in
And the sky is fallin down
When I’m swallowed up in feelings
I get lost inside the sound…

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